I am having weird physical uneasiness lately. I put the blame on the pressure that am experiencing at work. The thing is, the more pressure they put and the more anxious I get, the lesser I accomplish. Really, the past days? I was like so panicky and all. I mean, of course it’ll be all new and scary and challenging and pressure and all. But thing is, I don’t get this certain x amount of support. Or something. I don’t know.Someone asked me if I still like to code or something. I said, yes? There is still this feeling of satisfaction and fulfillment for every problem solved. And then he went, ‘But what would you rather do?’. I said, I still don’t know?
I forgot to tell the world, as if it’s something the world should know, I have a new phone, not because I am earning well with my current job (because am not, so yung mga nagpapalibre dyan, libre nyo your face lol) but because my old phone badly needs replacement. The phone? It’s cute.
And one more thing, I went to an opthalmologist last Tuesday. I have three cysts on my left eyelid. Grand. It’s causing too much discomfort now. It’s hurting every morning I wake up. And it feels like I always have puwing or something. I’ll be needing a minor operation. Minor. But still it scares the hell of me. No schedule yet because my pocket is not yet prepared. Maybe next week, or the week after that.
I go now. Til next post. 
Hala isa ako sa mga nagpapalibre diba? so libre my face? LOLZ
Anyway, ako nag-aadjust pa rin ako sa work ko. I love the work talaga pero pagcocommute naman problem ko since hindi pala kami flexi-sked at rush hour sucks talaga.
Naku, kelangan ko na rin ata magpatingin ng mata. Kwento ko sayo pag nagkita tayo ulit. Miss yah and the rest of the dotph gang
i hope you will be okay. that is scary. take care
Posted by grace at July 19, 2008, 9:09 amtoo much computer monitor exposure? take time to relax Cai.. hope things go well with you.
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pareho tayo. mas less and low-quality ang napo-produce kong work whenever i’m forced to do something under pressure. kaya you’re not alone in your current experiences. ako rin, kung tatanungin ako if I still want to code, sasagot ko rin “There is still this feeling of satisfaction and fulfillment for every problem solved”. pero pag tinanong ako “But what would you rather do?”, ang isasagot ko “I rather choose the problems I want to solve, than force me to solve the problems you choose”. some people/companies think na makakabuti ang continuous na pag-pressure sa isang employee para masigurong nagagawa nya mabuti ang kanyang work (like a master whipping a slave to continue making bricks), pero di nila nare-realize na ang isang employee ay human din at napapagod din (physically, mentally and emotionally) at “nao-overuse” din, at pag nagpatuloy ang ganyang condition ay mabe-burn out sya at made-deteriorate ang kanyang skills. no one wants to be under pressure forever and suffer forever, so eventually ang next thing na gagawin ng employee na yan is to leave the company (by resignation/awol/getting fired, etc). that’s why dapat pinangangalagaan din ng isang company ang human needs ng isang employee, to keep him/her in good shape and produce better works.
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Posted by perryv at July 18, 2008, 11:49 am