weekend

OK, this time I’ll be honest. Not because I want to but hell yeah I need to. And there’s no other fcuking way.

First, there’s too much shit going on with my life. I mean, okay people are dying everywhere and am lucky I can still blog and all. See, I should be happy because am living a lesser shitty life than those of people who have so less.

Hey there peepz! So it’s monday again. Happy Monday!

Oh well, am offline the whole weekend because I took the whole lot of it feeling bad for myself. Yeah, right! Contemplation and all that zen stuff to declutter the mind and all. I mean, things everywhere are shitty and I just need a break, bigtime.

So am taking the extra effort to rearrange my life 

So there, I felt like I needed to rearrange my life - the entire life, mind you. Thing is, I need a goal and I need a motivation. Before college, the goal was to finish the race first. But after the first failed mark on my lastyear, the goal was to finish on time - screw the laude and all. And now that the goal was reached, what now? Then the goal was to find a job. So now yeah, I have a job. The goal now is to make a career. Thing is, honestly, I don’t know really. And it’s quite depressing. I mean, take a fresh grad like me and all with no goals and motivation whatsoever, really that’s depressing.

Sometimes I wish am just a character in a book, I wouldn’t worry much about what would happen next because the author already planned the whole story. Speaking of a character in a book, sometimes I feel like am Holden Caulfield (The Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger), only the lady version and the lighter one. I mean, yeah the guy is hell of a depressing one, am not that depressing.

On the lighter note, last Saturday I went to my old friend’s house. We did videoke and stuff. Yeah, singing our lungs out til past 10pm. Then I went to Gloria Jean’s Araneta to meet another old friend. I went home around 2am. And hello chaos when I reached home. Really, it didn’t help me. I mean, I was trying to sort my life and then.. *sigh* (this is one is not light).

Sunday my friend and I did a little shopping. I bought a new glass pitcher for my tita and a mug for a friend (uyyy magbibirthday). This guy friend bought some stuff from Watsons. And I was bugging him to tell me if he’s bi or something, because really, it’s so bi. And yeah, I have a new phone. I wanted to have a facial or a new haircut, but my wallet wont allow me. So there, after windowshopping and all, we sat at the mall’s bowling center and talked about more serious stuff about life. Life coach, ftw. LOL. But hell yea, the guy made a lot of sense. And he was watching out for my temper the whole time because I was really pissed last night. 

I said this before and am saying it again now,

I feel like I need to go somewhere and I need to get there soon. 

And yeah before I forget, I am reading (again) The Firm of John Grisham and I note this line from Oliver Lambert (of course he’s one of the characters)

The most profitable way to operate is keeping our people happy.

P.S.

I miss this, being spontaneous and all.

And ftw, it’s 840am. Am late for work. Bye now.